I feel like crying. I really need a hug. Eva is 5 months old. Goodbye colics, welcome mashed fruits and vegetables, and my favourite Hipp jars. It was suppose to be easy from now on. Not because somebody told me it will, not because it’s a rule. No… it supposed to be easy because it was easy 11 years ago when Oliwer was a baby and 5 years ago, when Ben was. But this time it is NOT easy.
I am tired. And nobody can understand this type of tiredness, especially somebody who doesn’t have a baby. Even dads can’t know what it means unless they are stay at home dads. It’s the tiredness of – I don’t know what else I can do.
My problem seems to be simple – Eva is teething. Sounds simple – every mum and every baby need to go threw this. It stops being simple when your arms hurt from carrying a crying baby third hour in a row. When your baby tries to bite everything to stop their pain for a moment, when bonjela is not enough, and calpol helps only for a short period of time. None of teething toys can help, doesn’t matter how long you kept them in the fridge.
I feel helpless and so sorry for my little girl. I wish I could do more. I just hope it will finish quick.
So that’s it. Summer is long gone, and autumn is fully in. It’s this first part of it, that I really like. It is a bit cool, I do have heating set up on minimum at home, but it’s still sunny outside. I like steady walks with shoes dipped in colorful leaves that nobody swept of the path; I like colours if the trees and how everything change. The middle stage between summer and gray and wet, late autumn… I look at people around me, seems that nobody can see it, everybody is in such a rush, that they miss the beauty of nature. I don’t blame them. They probobly have jobs, meetings, problems to solve. I have time. This is one of the perks of having a newborn baby. I take my baby in a pram and just wander around.
Today maybe less peaceful, as my boys started half term break at school, but still lovely. This is me, the mother of three, I tell you STOP! Stand for a moment, smile and look around. The world is beautiful, we just need to look at it.
It’s a rainy, miserable day again. I were working in the greenhouse on my own, as my bosses went for a week to Spain. I wish I had this option, but as I don’t I decided to turn in to flowers photographer for the morning. I need to say that I’m not a photographer, I don’t know how to make good photos, and I have only my phone to do this. But we have some gorgeous flowers in the cottage, and I’d like to learn the art of sugar flowers, so I make photos of real ones and try to recreate them from fondant. One day I’ll show you two photos and you won’t know which one is real and which one is made by me, but there’s a very long way till that. For now I would like to show you the photos I’ve made, maybe my flowers will make someone happier, and make his sun shine. Enjoy.