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So it’s Saturday, and I am home alone. Well, not totally, I have my little princess Eva with me, but she is asleep. Paul is on the afternoon shift at work, and our boys spend Saturdays nights at their dad’s house. It’s very quiet in the house, even my cat doesn’t make a sound. I don’t usually like to be on my own, but today, after very busy few days, I am really enjoying it.

It’s because I try to be there for everybody. Eva off course needs my constant attention. Ben as a middle child is simply jealous, and this becomes a real problem. His not angry, he loves Eva. But he wants me to be with him all the time. So I need to stretch myself to change nappies, read books, bottle feed and play on PS at the same time. I do talk to him a lot, try to be there when he needs me. But this makes it worse, because now, everything is the end of the world. Today he took my iPad and saw that there is a new game. It was Oliwer’s game, and I didn’t know anything about it. So he cried. Instead of just go and ask his older brother he cried, and I’ve spent nearly 10 minutes calming him down, explaining that Oliwer for sure will tell him everything he wants to know about this game. This is how it looks, any little reason is the reason to cry. I don’t even entertain it any more. I just tell him to stop or I won’t talk to him. He needs to snap out of this habit quickly, or I’ll sit down and cry with him. And there’s Oliwer. He is 11, and this is time when he needs me and Paul a lot. If I hadn’t nag him about school, he would happily leave everything, not do his homework, and play on his PS all day and all night. So I make sure he is always ready for school, and if he doesn’t understand something, I work on it with him (what sometimes means that I have to go online and learn how to do it myself). In this matter I was nicely rewarded, as Oliwer’s new school report shows that he is where he should be with moste of the subjects, and with some of them even above the expected level.

This week I’ve had a difficult cake to make, so most of my free time over last three days, I’ve spent preparing figurines. I also tried to do the usual things, so our daily schedule doesn’t change. I think children, especially little needs a routine more than anything. I am very happy with the result of my work, and I want to show you how it turned out. It’s a double sided cake, for brother and sister, she loves Disney and animals, he plays Dragon City game. So here is a link to my instagram post;

I were very happy to give it away, so I could focus on my kiddos a little bit. We had an art Saturday. Ben could choose what we will do. He wanted to paint. I like when we paint, because Oliwer leaves his games and joins us every time. We have a bit of family time. It’s a shame that Paul was at work, and couldn’t do it with us.


Now, to celebrate mu quiet evening, I will hang my washing, and have a long hot bath.


Funny Eva

Something really funny happened today. Let’s start from the beginning.

Since Eva was born her granddad tried to make her laugh with his car keys. She was never bothered to much, until today. Today she couldn’t get off them. She just wanted them, and she cried if she couldn’t get them. The whole situation was very funny. Here is a film I’ve put on YT, showing her crying, and then cheering up when she’s got the keys.

It’s only 19 seconds. I hope you’ll enjoy it.


It’s nearly end of February. It is a month of changes for me and Eva.

Last Friday I turned 33. And as I cried when I turned 30, now I realized that I’m not bothered. Why? Because I like myself a lot more now, then I did when I was younger. I have three kids, and I don’t feel this pressure any more to look good, to be liked by others, to have a lot of friends. Don’t get me wrong, I still want to look pretty, I don’t let myself go, but I don’t think that taking Ben to school in the morning without make up on is such a tragedy. Most of the time I wear leggings, because I found them being my bridge between comfy and girly. But I have a thing I started to work on, related to my appearance and it is my weight. I put on about 15kg during pregnancy, and I didn’t loose any since. So I eat healthier, try to eat always at the same time and increased my activity, which means I started using my fitness dvd. My weight is 83.4kg, my BMI is 31, which mean for me that I am 1st degree obese. Previous me would be embarrassed to say that, but I treat this as a motivation to loose it, because every time I can tell you that I’ve lost something it will be my little success .

Now my little lovely Eva. She is now 4 months old. We started on adding vegetables and fruits to her diet, and it’s the funniest thing I have seen.

I know, some of the mums are thinking now – what is she doing? Midwife said, wait till your baby is 6 months!

I know what she said. But every mum has got her ways. I raised two boys before, and both of them started on vegetables and fruits when they turned 4 months. I couldn’t wait for that moment. The faces that baby is pulling when it tries something for the first time, and how messy it is, honestly first time I have Eva carrot she had it everywhere, even on her forehead. And I have to admit, I am lazy mum. I don’t cook it myself, I buy jars. Why? Because I believe that they are perfectly balanced to baby needs. I wouldn’t give her meat until she is 6 months old. So I carefully pick those, in my opinion good for my child. My favourite ones are Hipp, and I must say that we tried a few different tastes, the one that Eva liked most was probably Mixed vegetable medley, as she liked her lips for a long time after we finished.


Eva eating vegetables at 4 months old

There’s one more thing I’d like to tell you about – routines.

As she understand a bit more now, what I mean, she knows who we are, and loves when we talk to her, we have our little routines. I noticed, that at evening she always gets tired after 8 o’clock. So me and Paul try to give her a bath always around 8, then I put her in to her cot, and read a book. Right now, I am reading Winnie the Pooh. I love Pooh, I caught myself reading chapter after chapter, every time saying ‘Oooooh this one is my favourite…’ And Eva is listening. I don’t know how much she understand, but this creates a special bond between us. I also made an observation on this subject, with my boys. When I had my older son, nearly 12 years ago, I were reading to him every evening, and now he loves reading books, also he writes his own stories. With my younger boy, who’s going to be 5 at the end of this month I didn’t do it too much. I were reading from time to time, but not often. Now it’s time for him to learn to read and he is not so bothered about it. I hope Eva will love reading, because it opens the whole world of imagination for children.

To end up our routine, after reading I turn off the light and stay with Eva until she fall asleep. Then I put breathing ┬ámat on, and I go downstairs to spend the rest of the evening, watching films, or maybe to fall asleep on the sofa, during watching a film, after exhausting day…


Valentine’s Day is special for everybody. It always was something very important for me. But this year I just don’t feel it. I think it’s because I have lots of love around me every day. Me and Paul do the simple little things for each other all the time, so there’s no need for anything extremely special on this one day. But as I wanted to celebrate our love somehow on this occasion, I decided to start planning our wedding. And here the problem appear. I have no idea how to plan a wedding. I’ve been a guest on somebody’s wedding a few times, but never organised any, or even helped to organize one…

I decided to sign up to, at the beginning I’ve been asked some questions, like – what’s the date you chosen, or what is your wedding budget. Honestly, I have no idea. I roughly know, that we would like to get wed in two years (yes, I gave myself that much time, to organize my perfect wedding), preferably in june, because that’s when we had our first date. Budget? We will just have to see on the way, what we have and what we want.

The next thing that I saw on the page was very helpful task list. For a person that has absolutely no idea where to start, this is a life saver. So I downloaded their ultimate wedding checklist, read the tasks they gave me for this month, and ticked the boxes on things like – celebrate your engagement. Now we need to focus on our Wedding style and colours. It will take me the next few days or even weeks to go threw internet and find things that I like, then sit with Paul and decide what we want. This year we have our friends wedding coming up in August, so I will definitely pay attention to how it is done. The bride is a very creative person as well, and she has done a lot of decorations herself, even a flower girl dress. I want to do it this way, that’s why I need a lot of time.

I’ve never been a princess, but for this one day I want to feel like I am.



I finally found a bit of time to tell you about my Christmas. As I have a patchwork polish-english family, we celebrate in both ways as well. I’ll start from the beginning.

In Poland we celebrate on Christmas Eve rather then Christmas Day. Our tradition say, there should be twelve dishes on the table, there should always be one empty plate on the table, for unexpected hungry guest, who may knock on the door. We start our dinner when the first star comes out on the sky. Before eating, we share with each other a special wafer, called oplatek, and say Christmas wishes, usually of health and fortune. After that, some families read the Bible and pray, my family have never done that, therefore I don’t keep this tradition. Then we eat. My favourite dishes on Christmas table are pierogi (dumplings) with sauerkraft and mushrooms, and bigos – sauerkraft with mushrooms and meat. Now, before someone shout – There shouldn’t be meat on polish Wigilia (Christmas Eve)! – I will explain, that when I was a child we didn’t eat meat on Christmas Eve, it was more like a rule then tradition. In respect of animals that came to baby Jesus, there was NO! meat on polish table on Wigilia. But, when I was a bit older I remember, first hearing in the church, and then it was all over tv, that it’s everyone individual decision if he wants to eat meat or not. My family quickly adapted this information, and we do have a little bit of meat on this day.

This year my younger son, Ben (4) decided to help me with preparing dumplings, and we’ve had loads of fun doing this, although it wasn’t funny when I had to scrape dumplings dough from the floor after.


Ben preparing dumplings

This year, before the dinner, mr P dressed up as the Santa Clause. We thought Ben will recognize him, but he didn’t! It was so good to see this happiness on his little face. Even Eva had a photo with Santa.


Ben with Santa


Eva with Santa

All children received one gift each, with a promise of more on Christmas Day…

Christmas Day is always a bit difficult for me, as my boys go to their dad, to spend some time with him. Me and mr P go to his parents to celebrate with them. But first, when we wake up we open our Christmas gifts. There has to be a gift for everybody, even for our cat. This year I’ve got a very special gift from mr P. I had a giant gift bag, with loads of wrapped boxes inside. Boxes where smaller, and smaller, and when finally I’ve got to one size of a shoe box, he told me to leave it, stand in front of a Christmas tree and close my eyes. So I did. And he took out the ring, and proposed… this is the best gift I could ever get.

I hope that this next year 2017, will be healthy, happy, magical, and full of good surprises, for me, and for you. Happy New Year!



December is a very special time for my family. It’s the most magical time. And as I am polish my Christmas look a little bit different then British Christmas. I won’t tell you now about Christmas Eve , and Day, because it’s a story for a next time. I want to tell you about Father Christmas Day.

As everyone who celebrate Christmas ,  at the beginning of December I buy Advent calendars for my whole family including me and Mr P. And the first date on this calendar that we can’t wait for is 6th of December. All children go to sleep early on 5th of December ,  because Santa won’t come if they’re not asleep. And in the morning when they wake up ,  they find gifts under the pillows. Nothing big, little toys, and mainly sweets.

This shows children that he is there, he is watching, and he knows who’s good or not. That raise my question. Do you tell your children that Father Christmas is watching them? Or that he won’t give them presents if they’re naughty? I do, but this year my 4 year old was really scared, and didn’t want to be alone in his room after I told him that he’s being watched. It’s this thing, we tell children to keep away from strangers , and then at Christmas we say that old man with beard is watching them all the time and it’s ok! Never thought of this until this year.

Anyway my 4 years old Ben is a bit of  handful child. Recently he really wasn’t a very good boy, so along with the gifts under his pillow I left the letter from Father Christmas, saying that if he want to get this gift he is talking about a lot for Christmas , he needs to try a little bit harder. But Ben instead of thinking ‘Oh no! I need to be good from now on!’ just said ‘Mum he promised me I’ll get it!’ It didn’t really work as I planned…


So that’s it. Summer is long gone, and autumn is fully in. It’s this first part of it, that I really like. It is a bit cool, I do have heating set up on minimum at home, but it’s still sunny outside. I like steady walks with shoes dipped in colorful leaves that nobody swept of the path; I like colours if the trees and how everything change. The middle stage between summer and gray and wet, late autumn… I look at people around me, seems that nobody can see it, everybody is in such a rush, that they miss the beauty of nature. I don’t blame them. They probobly have jobs, meetings, problems to solve. I have time. This is one of the perks of having a newborn baby. I take my baby in a pram and just wander around.

Today maybe less peaceful, as my boys started half term break at school, but still lovely. This is me, the mother of three, I tell you STOP! Stand for a moment, smile and look around. The world is beautiful, we just need to look at it.