Monthly Archives: June 2016

Flowers and rain

It’s a rainy, miserable day again. I were working in the greenhouse on my own, as my bosses went for a week to Spain. I wish I had this option, but as I don’t I decided to turn in to flowers photographer for the morning. I need to say that I’m not a photographer,  I don’t know how to make good photos, and I have only my phone to do this. But we have some gorgeous flowers in the cottage, and I’d like to learn the art of sugar flowers,  so I make photos of real ones and try to recreate them from fondant. One day I’ll show you two photos and you won’t know which one is real and which one is made by me, but there’s a very long way till that. For now I would like to show you the photos I’ve made, maybe my flowers will make someone happier, and make his sun shine. Enjoy.
 

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MY LITTLE BIG ANNIVERSARY

For most od people this wouldn’t mean much, but for me it’s a lot. It’s mine and Paul’s second anniversary of our first date.


 Why I want to tell, you this? Because it’s not easy for a person like me, with my past, to trust again…

Three years ago I’ve been left alone. After 10 years and two kids, the father of my boys decided to start a new family somewhere else. That destroyed my self-esteem, and I didn’t think that I’ll love again… I was broken inside really badly, I didn’t even know how much.

When I first met Paul I were just starting to put my world together. Thirty years old single mum with two kids and financial problems. But he took me as I am. 


I was a right mess at the beginning. If I woken up, and he wasn’t next to me, I were running downstairs to see If he didn’t dissappeare. I’ve made many mistakes. I were kicking off if he went to put a football bet on and didn’t come back for one hour. I still learn to trust. I still walk around our living room and look through the window, if he is 5 mins late from work. But I learn. I tell myself that I shouldn’t be worried. Because I know I can trust him. He took it all very well. He stayed with me, accepted me, and showed me real love. Showed me how the life with love should look like.

And here we are now. Me pregnant, Paul being a perfect dad for my two boys, waiting for our little girl to be born. And I just want to say ‘Thank you!’ and ‘I love you!’ because you’re with me…